Found my Sims 3. And as soon as I log on: Hader twins. Very unmanageable, though. >.< Even the babysitter is getting grumpy. But yeah, what is everyone doing for Christmas(or any other holiday you celebrate)?

So, I turn 18 on Wednesday. This is giving me super flashbacks of petty dreams and the things I was going to do when I got to this age. But now that it's finally here, I don't really give a damn. In fact, it seems as though nothing has changed from 12 to now. Maybe it's because people make it out to be so grand and amazing. Trust me when I say it really isn't, in the slightest. I don't even know what I am suppose to do...Buy porn or something? Well, if anyone has suggestions. Please give them to me.

Until then, check out this old pic of me when I was like 11. Funny how I look almost the same only without a light making my nose look big. XP



Orrrr...You could watch this. Because everyone wants a Christian side hug. XD Just trying to entertain. lol

Had to get swabbed today because my father demanded a paternity test. How come the minute a man has to step up to the plate, they deny the children? Though, it was pretty fun. They put these over-sized Q-tips in your mouth. I cannot wait to hear the results. Seems kinda funny. XD

I was searching around YouTube for something new and exciting and I just had to post this super fantabulous remix of A Lil Jon song and the German Sailor Moon theme. XD Catchiest remix ever? Quite possibly.

Seriously having Sims 3 withdrawals. But I cannot seem to find the game. I hid it from my siblings who keep fucking with my Hader family. (He doesn't really look like Bill, but somehow still hot. XD) Sadly, I seem to of hid it from myself as well. >.< DAMNIT!

So, I haven't posted in quite some time. Not sure why I have to mention, for I think I have but two readers. XD In a way, I feel it is more for myself than anything. Nice way to lets the stress out I suppose. Maybe it's the same for everyone?

Well, first things first, I uploaded all the pictures from the EA concert to my Myspace. Which, I don't think you have to be a member to see them.
( Come Hither )

Also, I seem to have lost feeling in my right shin. Not sure what that's about though. Obviously it is nerve damage. But from what? I literally do nothing of importance to get nerve damage in the front of my leg. I suspect it has something with the fridge door. It is broken, so when you try to close it, you have to lift it up. My knee helps it. Mi madre says it will get better. Only time will tell. ^^

Just finished a book called Interpretation of Murder. Pretty damn good. It is about this fictional American dude whom becomes a follower of the infamous cocaine addict by the name of Sigmund Freud. Also falls in love with one of his psycho analysis patients. It has murder in it too. So yeah. Good book.

And lastly, SNL tonight. That should get the feeling back in my leg. :D

Happy Halloween

tomorrow

What is everyone being? I am personally a victorian drag queen circus performer.

OMGTOMORROWISTHEEMILIEAUTUMNSHOWANDIAMSODAMNEXCITED
BECAUSESHEISLIKEMYIDOLANDIAMTOTTALY
ABOUTTOTURNINTOA12YEAROLDFANGIRLNEWBIE!!

Nobody ever told me it would take like two years to find a freakin' job. Like, seriously!? This is the most complicated thing I have done in my life. Everything from calling them to faking a work history. NOBODY WILL HIRE ME! I've even taken out my lipring!(Well, only when I am around them. XD) This seriously blows. So I suppose I shall sit at home and release my anger with laughter. Thanks SNL. :D

And it seems I shall indeed go to the EA show in Dallas. Yay for me! Which also means I need to use the rest of my money for a new corset. Though I am thinking of going against it and sticking with just plain frilly victorian wear. When you haven't a job, it isn't wise to spend money on expensive things such as corsets.

Just felt I should post this little gem. Maybe someone could get me an early birthday present, no? XD

P.S. if you happen to have pediophobia, I do not suggest watching this. XDD

And I am back to the world. :D Unfortunatly, I have nothing of value to say. Nothing new has happened what-so-ever. So I will leave with this: Yay! New Ghost Hunters and Destination Truth AND Saturday Night Live episodes!? TV loves me right now. :D

So my brother and I are both obviously Saturday Night Live fans. So you could only imagine our excitement when we saw Mr. Hammond on the new oreo commercial. HEART. Well, I was excited. Brandon loathes Trump impressions. But who doesn't love a good SNL mention outside of the show? Call me obsessed all you want. That is just the life of a fan girl. XD

In other news, I found this lovely picture. Makes me laugh my ass off. Thanks silly website for showing me how damn easy it is to rip people off. XD

I feel sick. I want to be dead. I want it to stop. I want this to stop. I want them to leave me alone. Please someone get me out of here. I don’t want to watch people hurt anymore. I don’t want to move again. I don’t want to try and cry anymore. I am so utterly tired of the fighting. Of men hurting. Of men hurting people My life is a broken record. And I cannot do this anymore. I am having my first nervous breakdown in a long time. And I do not know what to do. Especially since it is not my fault. Or, perhaps, it was. Where is ‘God’ when I need him? Where is anyone? Where the fuck are they? I want a family. I want someone. Anyone. Oh God, now I am begging. Is there something wrong with that? Am I so damn insane that I cannot control myself anymore? The tears have yet to fall yet, and I do not know why. I’ve never felt so much pain in my life.

I feel like the term "bisexual" is being misused way to commonly. This is a topic that I find very intresting and important to address. Now, I understand the means of bi-curiosity and how this seems to be a trend nowadays. But something about that is kind of sick, for people are going to the extremes of faking their sexual orientation just to fit in. Of course, this isn't meant for everyone. Just the small few *cough cough scene kids cough cough*. XD

Then there are those whom believe they are bisexual but are really something else. One thing that bothers me to no end(as in worries), as I believe one should know of their sexual identity as to avoid future confusion of themselves. So I shall post these definitions. :)

(I, personally, put myself in the pansexual catagory.)

bi⋅sex⋅u⋅al [bahy-sek-shoo-uhl]
–adjective
1.Biology
a.of both sexes.
b.combining male and female organs in one individual; hermaphroditic.

2.sexually responsive to both sexes; ambisexual.

–noun
3.Biology. an animal or plant that has the reproductive organs of both sexes.
4.a person sexually responsive to both sexes; ambisexual.

Origin:
1815–25; bi- 1 + sexual


pan⋅sex⋅u⋅al [pan-sek-shoo-uhl]
–adjective
1.Psychiatry. pertaining to the theory that all human behavior is based on sexuality.
2.Also, omnisexual. expressing or involving sexuality in many different forms or with a variety of sexual outlets.

adj. Relating to, having, or open to sexual activity of many kinds.
n. A pansexual person.

Origin:
1925–30; pan- + sexual

(Unfortunately the only definition for this one, was on wikipedia. Sounds pretty much the same as Pansexuality, but I have only recently heard of it.)

Polysexuality refers to people who are attracted to more than one gender or sex but do not wish to identify as bisexual because it implies that there are only two binary genders or sexes. Polysexuals are those people sexually attracted to many different sorts of ideas and characteristics. Polysexuality should not be confused with pansexuality; pan meaning all, and poly meaning many, though not necessarily all.

The term is also used as an appellation for relationships that are non-monogamous, but not necessarily intimate, polysexuals being those who engage in such relationships.

Polysexuality is a self-identifying term that is somewhat amorphous, as there is a wide variety of different people who use the term to describe themselves.

Could it be, that I hath finally found downloadable music from The Clockwork Dolls!? This is by far the happiest day of my life. Not really. But I am also pretty happy about my interview with Six Flags Saturday. :D It is a no-reservation-needed-deal, but I think I should still call a bit ahead. Just in case.


Yeah. That is all I have to say. D:

EDIT: You should look up Joe Black. If you are into to artistic music and sorta-kinda-hot-victorian-esque-goth boys, his music is good. Even has a nice creepy touch to it. Coppelius is good too. From good ol' Germany, they are. :)

Just got through traveling from Arizona to Texas. Most tedious move in the world. And I am pretty sure we live on the worst part of town. That doesn't bother me too much, for I plan on moving to NY as soon as I get the chance. Which means I really need to find a job. So far I have only applied for Six Flags. Still unsure as to what else there is to do here.


For the record: I have always hated this god forsaken state since I was a child. when we moved away six years ago, I said I would never come back. Alls I have to say is: JKHFSDKJHksfkuehfeuisgIUFLAHDKHWKUEfhukeshbgi8f394 ry532 u8ryu8a9shfdusdhefukudsfhkjafehlkjaegw!!!!!!!!

I swear to God, if I do not get a ticket to Emilie Autumn's Dallas show, I will punch myself in the face. Maybe not. Though I am uber excited for this. If only people understood how long I have been waiting for her to tour in America. Heart. :D

So. After watching the video Jorma posted on The Lonely Islands Youtube, I think I am ready for MacGruber to be out. That being said, I still have no idea why they would choose MacGruber of all the SNL characters to choose from. (I will still be the first in line.) The video is not to bad, and hurt my ears thanks to the headphones. So, I shall post it here for those who haven't seen it. Maybe I will post it to snltribute. Still not sure why I am hardly there. XD

( RAWR. )

Seriously, now "his" daughter sent me a message on Myspace. I am in no mood to post it now, for I am so tired of people sending me hate mail. I am sick of people trying to bring me down. Am I seriously that bad of a person? Well, apparently, I am after their money so I must be a monster. But I am pretty sure he came into contact with ME. Why did they have to find me? Why did they have to make my life more complicated then it already was? They couldn't wait until I was older and less of a child?

If it wasn't for I Love You, Man right now, I would have lost my possitive flow. :D
Andy Samberg+Paul Rudd+Jason Segal=Happy moment for me. XD

Well, some girl randomly sent me a message on youtube asking me if I was scene or emo. i am not sure why, as I haven't any videos uploaded. The account is for commenting purposes only. But I have almost all the messages she sent me. It is quiet interesting. You can clearly see me getting angry towards the end. XD Just thought I would share some lovely dumb girl wisdom.

( Say what? )

UPDATE She replied....*sigh*: